If there's a rocket, tie me to it

Because I'd love to leave this life for some time, run away, and be another me.

No earthlings, joke, I'm not bored of my own life. :)

By the way, hello again! I know I haven't been on here for quite a long time, but here I am again, all ready to trash your internet!

Alright, you may be asking: "Tiff what the hell is the picture above all about, I'm not brokenhearted or hurt or anything else." But, I've been getting this repeated question on formspring lately, and it's been about "How to move on." So there it goes, a typography I just made 10 minutes ago. Hope that helps!

yellow

Your skin,

Oh yeah, your skin and bones

Turn into something beautiful

And you know,

You know I love you so

You know I love you so

Coldplay - Yellow

I still remember the very first time you told me this was your favorite song.

Then whenever my iPod plays this song.. it's just you in my mind.

I must admit, my birthday was one of the best days in my life. You called me at 4 am, said a happy birthday in your sweetest voice..... and without any reason, there you said 'I love you'.

Tears rolled down my cheeks. I just want you to know, those three words, are the words I'd been waiting for.

Then on the 7th,

You said that you couldn't make it to my birthday. But then you showed up. Gave you the first of my cake. You gave me a warm hug that night.

I couldn't do anything but smile.

I love you, boo.

Two

Talking about the word 'two', what comes up in your mind besides the number after 1?

Well to me:

1. Two eyes to look after

2. Two ears to listen to

3. Two hands to hold on

4. Two feet to stand by you

5. Two words that bring you up and down: hate and love

6. Two persons who support you most: mom and dad

7. Two fathers you have: God and your biological father

8. Two of a kind: YOU and I

9. Two different persons to gather as one: YOU and I

10. Two hearts to gather as one: YOURS and MINE

11. Two dreams that will come true: OUR

12. Two lives that worth more than everything: OUR

13. Two journeys that become as one: OUR

So the question now is:

what comes up in your mind besides the number after 1? Like usual, answer on the comment box. :)

when i was only six

Life was so much easier.

Life was just a game, and I were the player, I'd always win.

Life was just a piece of paper, I'd use a pencil to write on it, I'd never be afraid of being wrong, because I knew I had an eraser.

Life was something I'd never regret.

'Tomorrow' was everything I'd wait for.

Now that I am sicksteen.

Everything is just the opposite.

Will I regret life then?

Well, no. Life will always still be the greatest gift God's ever given me. :)

unstoppable me

Ok. I know that some people have been asking me to start writing a book. Haha but seriously, they need to know how hard it is to write a book. It's not as easy as ABC.

I've got some thoughts that will be written in my book - I hate the way I say my book, it's not like I'm really going to.

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"Now I know."
"What do you know?"
"I was too stupid I loved him. I was too stupid that I believed what he'd always said. I should've known that guys tell bullshits."
"I don't."

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"You know I've always loved you."
"I don't. You never told me so."
"I never want to tell you. Because I want you to feel it yourself."
"You should have..... Then who's the girl?"
"Oh that girl?"
"Yeah."
"Jealous?"
"I don't."
"Don't tell me lies."
"I don't."
"Ok. So I know that she may be prettier than you.. but even if life gives me thousands of her, they're nothing compared to you."
"...."
"It's you. It's always been you. There's no other."
"I'm out of words."
"I. Love. You."

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Hm corny much.

the night is not young

1:47 AM

I can't sleep.
The thoughts of you are running in my mind.

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I'm wondering if thoughts of me are running in yours, too..

living in a dream

Dreams.

People believe some dreams are not meant to come true. Really then? I don't know. Yeah perhaps my dreams haven't all come true. But doesn't mean one day, one of my dreams will come true.

But....

To me, if my dreams are not to come true, the hell with it. I've still got more dreams to reach, to work for. I don't understand why some people would just... stop dreaming. When you decide to stop dreaming, it means you decide to give up your everything.

World peace. One of my dreams is to make world peace. Join me? Let's just start in our community. Start loving, stop hating. Remember, if you live to hate, you'll never learn to love.

Anyways,

To be with you is one of my dreams too. :)

when i turn 21

I'm gonna get my first tattoo on my wrist with the words, "No lies, just love."

Anyways talking about life.

Life's been good so far. I attended two parties in a row this weekend, and they were really good. Am I a party animal? Not. Well I guess I deserved the parties I attended, since a girl like me - yes, who goes to a homogenous school with strict rules and teachers and thousand stuffs to do - always spends hours studying like shit.

And again, this is my advice to you:

Life is hard, then try not to harden it. Enjoy life, live it to the highest, don't take it for granted - for your life is the best present you've ever been given.

So has everyone had a good life? :)

kings and queens

Into your eyes

Hopeless and taken

We stole our new lives

Through blood an pain

In defense of our dreams

In defense of our dreams

We were the kings and queens of promise

We were the victims of ourselves

Maybe the children of a lesser god

Between heaven and hell, Heaven and hell.

30 Seconds To Mars - Kings And Queens

So I'm trying to find my own king, and I barely have any idea where he actually is. I don't even know if he actually exists.

Even if I know him, I don't know if he knows I, his queen exist.

People say the right one will come to me, sooner or later. But I keep on thinking, perhaps my right one was to find me but he suddenly got hit by a truck - ha ha. Not. I hope not.

Have you ever felt like.. you actually know that YOU WANT THEM. It's always been them.

But the main problem is, you DON'T KNOW if they feel the same way too.

And that main problem, is the only thing that confuses you: to go on, hoping for them to come to you OR to stop, stop there and start forgetting them.

You know what hurts?

When you keep on showing them signs but they can't seem to understand.

Holy fudge boy, when are you going to open your eyes and start realizing that I am crazy about YOU? AND ONLY YOU?

:(

Ok. So I have a little question for you to answer,

If you like someone so much and you have shown them how much you love them but they can't seem to understand, what will you do then? Just keep on doing what you have been doing or walk away?

Comment on the 'comment'. :)

lies

Everybody lies. Truth.

I did. I still do. Well, I don't really tell lies "lies". How about white lies then?

Ok talking about white lies... they're still lies anyways. However white, however clean the lies you tell, they're still lies anyways.

You ask if they hurt. Well, yes: if you don't know if they're actually lying, but soon you know. And no: if you know they're lying, but they still lie anyway.

Sometimes you just wanna laugh at those liars who keep on lying to you, even when you know they really are. You don't wanna tell them that you know - not because you don't have the guts to, you do; but you wanna know how hard they'll break down because they do lie to you.

Anyways,

Yep, you. I just wanna tell you one thing.

I believe in you. I put my trust in you.

Just please, don't break it.

Because once you break it, it's hard to you to get the privilege back.

you and i

Took the picture today,

And decided to write something about the picture,

Well here goes:

You and I,

We may be different,

But we're still humans anyway

You and I,

We may look different,

But we're still humans anyway

You and I,

We may see things in different views,

But we still see the same thing anyway

You and I,

We may think in different ways,

But we still think of the same thing anyway

You and I,

We may be different,

But I still love you anyway

dear fellows

Oh hi. :)

On this post, I wanna share about things that fly me high, but sometimes drop me down.

Well, first up. I wanna apologize for all things I've done wrong to my dear followers on Twitter. I may not know what things I've done wrong, or how I've gone wrong but I'm sorry if I have ever hurt your feelings. But please remember, I never intend to.

Second. I just wanna tell that I DON'T COPY-PASTE THE QUOTES I WRITE. Even if I copy paste, I always put "". I'll put the writer name if it's written, but I'll just put "" if it's unknown.

If there are some of my quotes that look alike the quotes other writers have written, then I don't know. I really don't. I don't google quotes and post them on Twitter, because I know it's wrong. I appreciate originality, really.

Third. I'm sorry if I barely reply your mentions on Twitter. It's not because I don't want to, but it's because sometimes - I can't see your mentions because I get loads of Retweets. So I'm really sorry. If you have things to tell me or if you wanna talk, please, feel free to email me:

tiffanywxyz.gmail.com

But please, I'm only human. I make mistakes too. But I really appreciate the way you talk politely. I've got stuffs like "You suck up bitch." Ok even if I do, who are you to call me a bitch?

waiting...

For my hair to grow longer!!! :D

This is my happy face,

And my hair is this long.

Oh well, yeah I know my hair is pretty long... My dad thinks I should get my hair cut soon but dad, not yet. I'm waiting for my hair to reach my waist. Cos I'm going to cut my hair off - not - I'm going to donate 30 cm of my hair to one lucky cancer survivors.

You know they need hair. They have to pass this kind of chemotherapy and lose their hair. So I'm going to help them :) I'll donate my hair to American Cancer Society I think, because I don't know if Indonesians still donate their hair to Indonesian Cancer Society. Then one lucky survivor will get my hair in.... a wig!

Oh well,

Can't wait to help them, really.

get well soon

Get well soon watermelon!

You may not understand who does that watermelon refer to...

But at least I know he will understand.

Missing the 'fine' you.

#nomorehate

Talking about world peace these days,

Some say:

"Impossible. We're different to each other."

"Easy to be said, hard to be done. Exactly."

"Non-sense. World peace can never happen."

But I think, if you don't throw your negative thoughts about world peace away, how will you support world peace then?

I know it's hard, but doesn't mean it's impossible, no?

I'm tired of hearing "war here war there." Isn't it just more beautiful to have a peaceful earth? The one without war, the one without hatred. Only love. God has created us to love each other, not to hate.

So please guys, if you think you still hate your friends, your parents or anyone else. STOP! Start loving them.

If you live to hate,

You'll never learn how to love.

People have screamed. People have yelled. THEY WANT PEACE.

If you support world peace,

Well I have made this badge. Please save and copy this badge on your webs: your blog, facebook, tweet it on your twitter or whatsoever. PLEASE!

my future husband

1. Will change my last name

And I hope his last name is actually a good name ;) hahaha. You may ask 'what's in a name?' but really, name is important - well at least to me.

2. Will change me and my life, to be better

He will change me and my life to be better, yes. He will tell me if I go wrong, he will help me get through it, so I won't have to go wrong twice. He will be happy when he knows that I've changed to be a better person because of him and only him. He will smile when he knows that he's made my life more colorful because of him, too.

3. Will ask me to have a fine dinner, just two of us

Yep like when we were still boyfriend and girlfriend. Because people know, that when they get married, they won't do such things like they did when they were boyfriend and girlfriend. He'll take me to a fine dinner every weekend. Maybe sometimes we'll take the kids with us.

4. Will always phone me whenever he's away

Even in his busiest hours. Even when he is at work. Just to tell me that he loves me. Or perhaps if he doesn't have time to phone me, he'll text me an I love you. And it's more than enough to me.

5. Will always be my man

Will be the man I can always rely on. Will be the man that makes me smile when I don't know how to. Will be the man that gives me a shoulder to cry on. Will be the man that wipes my tears off. Will be the man that loves me, in and out. Will be the man that assures me we can build a happy and strong family.

6. Will hear my stories every night

He will give his ears for free, just to listen to my stories: what I did yesterday, what I'm doing today, what I'll do tomorrow, what I've done in my whole life. He'll listen when I share. He'll listen when I cry my eyes out, when I bleed my heart.

7. Will hug me whenever I need or needn't one

He will love hugging me. Every morning when I just wake up, when he's about to go to work. Every evening when he gets home from work, when I'm in the kitchen cooking his meal. Every night when we're about to sleep. And in my dreams, he won't stop hugging me and telling me he loves me.

8. Will raise his kids our way

He will love his kids like he loves himself. He will love his kids like he loves me. He will know how to teach his kids. He will know how to make them happy, smile and laugh. He will never make them cry, well okay even if they cry, the tears that fall down their cheeks are happy tears. We will make the best birthday parties for our kids. He will come to every parental meeting. He will always smile whenever our kids get their results, even if they get a C. He will watch them when they have matches to play at school.

9. Will never tell me goodbye

He said hello for the first time.... but he'll never tell me goodbye. Only see you.

10. Will never leave me till death do us part

.......he will never. We will still tell I love you(s) when we get old. We'll still watch movies together. We'll still have fine dinners. We'll play with our grown up kids. We'll still do things together...

So answer this question:

What will your future husband/wife be like?

Like usual, answer it on the 'comments'. :)

rocked the night out \m/

So I went to watch Java Rocking Land last night. It was simply incredible.

Something was missing though,

YOU.

We were supposed to watch Dashboard Confessional together. We were. But too bad you couldn't make it. Yesterday could be the first time we'd meet and also the first time you'd hug me.

But anyways,

I took a photo of Chris. He was simply amazing in that picture. Nothing could ever beat his voice and the way he played the songs - the way he sang. The way he played with his guitar, duh. Dashboard Confessional really rocked the night out - no kidding, seriously. They were effing great. I was really, really satisfied with their playing. An hour wasn't enough. And I should've met them in person. I should've taken pictures with them and got their signs. I SHOULD HAVE. I would pay just to meet them in person.

Really did wish you were there.

Really did wish I could hug you when Chris sang the song Stolen,

The song I gave you months ago...........

And then, I hoped you would realize the meaning behind the song I gave you,

That you...... have stolen my heart.

paperplanes hold my wish

I caught the date 10-10-10, time 10:10:10

And so I wish for nothing but the best..

You + me = us

I hoot you.

just tomorrow

1. Dashboard Confessional / Java Rocking Land'10

2. Meeting you

Tomorrow's gonna be the best weekend,

well... at least of this year.

The flower and the bee,

You be my flower, I be your bee.

Cos we complete each other,

we always do....