PEOPLE GOT ME THINKIN

Should i start.......... writing a book? Some people say that i ought to write one.

Even my sister says so. But the thing is... my only question is,

"What should i write about? What will the topic be? What will it be about? Should it be a novel or....?"

But if you think i shouldn't write, it's fine by me. I'll just keep on tweeting, i suppose?

Since now some of you have known my type of writing, help me? :)

Answer this question by mentioning me on Twitter or answering this q on my own Tagboard (see the heart-shaped icon and click!)

PARACHUTE

I wanna take you with me
to life with no more yesterdays
we can start again awake and so excited
and change the way we always push
we always push

I'll open up and be your parachute
and I'll never let you down
so open up and be my human angel
and we'll only hit the ground
running

Would you ever know then... that I have a feeling I couldn't tell you d-i-r-e-c-t-l-y?

GOD HOW MUCH I WISH YOU COULD READ MY MIND,

So I wouldn't have to find a way to tell you how I really felt. :/

woof!

love me, love me, love me, or love me?

#16 - SOMEONE WHO'S NOT IN MY STATE/COUNTRY

Bibiane Huang ;)

a cousin - a sister - someone i just met... weeks ago

God you're not gonna know how much i love this girl! I know we just met weeks ago, since she's always lived in California, USA. And just know.. she just asked me, "Jiejie are you going to miss me when I'm back to the US?"

Told her...

"Whether you believe it or not, I'm obviously going to miss you. Three weeks is just not enough.. But one day, one time when I move to the US and live in California, I promise I'll be right there for you." :)

Bibiane, jiejie loves you so muchhhh.

OH SO NOT LOVE STORY ;)

I've been asked to write this one post - dedicated just for my two gay friends. Well, actually not gay friends, guy friends, Brian Adam (@bra_yeun) and Wilson Kanadi (@wilzkanadi)

I met them online. Never thought they wrote quotes like i do, turns out they do too! :) and it's been a pleasure to be friends with them. We joke and talk about stupid stuffs a lot. Oh well - we talk about Brian & Wilson's relationship too. -Just joking, they're not really in love.

Well maybe they are, but just as best friends i suppose. I don't know if they have feelings for each other more than that though. HAHAHAHA

Some people have asked me if I'm in love with them. Well yeah, maybe I am, but only as a best friend. No longer than that. They've been there to listen to my blabbing - my feeling.

Oh, I have already had someone in mind anyway, that's why. :)

So don't ask me, never again, a question:

Are you in a relationship with either Wilson Kanadi or Brian Adam?

The answer will be No, I'm not.

#15 - THE PERSON I MISS THE MOST

Anthony William

my only one brother - might be the guy i hate the most,

i love the most, yet i miss the most

Now that he barely stays at home [cos he got this work-project outta Jakarta, and he needs to live with my grandmother], i miss him utterly much.

I miss the way he mocks me, makes fun of me, talks to me and plays with me.

He may not be the nicest brother ever, but he has always tried to understand me like a true brother does. He supports me no matter what. He loves me - just like i love him.

Please come home soon. I miss home - with you in it.

PERFECT?

Okay so.

Weeks ago, I got this question on Formspring:

Tiffany, your life seems to be so perfect. I envy you.

It got me thinking for a while, yeah it really did. I asked my self, "If it's perfect, I won't have to cry anymore. I won't have to break down anymore. I will just smile every time, without any burden."

I AM NOT PERFECT. I WILL NEVER BE PERFECT.

And I don't even want to be perfect. Because perfection is... boring.

1. I barely brush my hair because i just like the way it is

2. My hair is always messed up, so is my bedroom

3. I still piss people off

4. I still annoy my friends

5. I talk bad stuffs with my brother - and yes i like it

6. I can cry and laugh at the same time - and it's not weird anyway

7. I wish. I always keep on wishing - even if i know it's not going to happen

8. I am sixteen and i still wear my doraemon pajamas

9. I always get really melancholy at night

10. Just a song could make me cry days and nights

11. I still wait until 11.11 - just to see if someone is missing me

12. My nightmare still frighten me

13. I keep on blabbing when i'm nervous

14. I sometimes piss my teachers off

15. I am in love with an imperfect person - and that makes me imperfect

#14 - SOMEONE WHO I'VE DRIFTED AWAY FROM

JME.

I don't know how to tell him I've missed talking to him quite terribly.

I don't even know how to talk to him first - I'm just too afraid to. Too afraid to feel as if I'm bugging him.

Things have changed, time has been running faster..

Now we're not like the 'us' we used to be.

This may sound cheesy, but I really wish I could turn back time to months ago,

To June.

The month I always... talked to you. About everything we liked.

Well, here I've told you,

I miss you.

rindu

Ya, rindu luar batas

Tahukah dia?

Tidak. Dan mungkin tidak akan pernah

Otakku menepis fakta bahwa aku merindukannya

Tapi hatiku tidak

Hatiku tidak pernah bohong

Hatiku berkata yang jujur

Aku sakit

Aku pedih

Aku teriak

Aku kecewa

Aku..

Aku ingin dirinya.

#13 - SOMEONE I WISH COULD FORGIVE ME

I believe He always forgives whatever we do wrong. But sometimes, this thing comes up to my mind: What if I've done wrong too much and I get to be unforgivable?

Oh yes, it stresses me out so much.

Like last night,

Maybe you fellow Indonesians have known a bit about @adit_FPI on Twitter, what he's done wrong. Was I mad? Oh eys, so much. I thought I couldn't even forgive him, since he's mocked my God, my religion, what I believe a little bit too much.

What on earth people who don't know anything about Christianity COULD mock our God? Like come on, dude. We stand for one nation, we're all the same. Oh, it got me secretly laughing too. He mocked my God, yes, and I could only rub my chest and say, "Relax Tiff, even God's not mad at all.", WHAT IF it was about HIS GOD being mocked? What'd he do then?

Then I found this

Don't be misled - you cannot mock the justice of God. You will always harvest what you plan.

Yep, I don't have the right to judge him, but He has.

:( God once again, I'm sorry to ever hate a person because he mocked you.

Tú eres mi destino.

You.

Never thought I'd have a feeling for you anyway. Considered you as another random people I'd barely talk to but it's turned out... different.

Never even thought I'd miss or even love you. But now I do. Is it wrong anyway?

We watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

-Dashboard Confessional

If loving you is a sin then.. i guess i'm just another true sinner. I can't seem to stop.

Oh God. I love you. :/ do you feel the same way?

FOR MY WATERMELON. :)

By the way, I've read the thing you wrote on chatbox

I miss you tooooooooooooooo, my watermelon.

Been three months and a week now, i suppose? Miss u sooooooo

Puff.

Jme,xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxoxooxox