when i was only six

Life was so much easier.

Life was just a game, and I were the player, I'd always win.

Life was just a piece of paper, I'd use a pencil to write on it, I'd never be afraid of being wrong, because I knew I had an eraser.

Life was something I'd never regret.

'Tomorrow' was everything I'd wait for.

Now that I am sicksteen.

Everything is just the opposite.

Will I regret life then?

Well, no. Life will always still be the greatest gift God's ever given me. :)

unstoppable me

Ok. I know that some people have been asking me to start writing a book. Haha but seriously, they need to know how hard it is to write a book. It's not as easy as ABC.

I've got some thoughts that will be written in my book - I hate the way I say my book, it's not like I'm really going to.

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"Now I know."
"What do you know?"
"I was too stupid I loved him. I was too stupid that I believed what he'd always said. I should've known that guys tell bullshits."
"I don't."

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"You know I've always loved you."
"I don't. You never told me so."
"I never want to tell you. Because I want you to feel it yourself."
"You should have..... Then who's the girl?"
"Oh that girl?"
"Yeah."
"Jealous?"
"I don't."
"Don't tell me lies."
"I don't."
"Ok. So I know that she may be prettier than you.. but even if life gives me thousands of her, they're nothing compared to you."
"...."
"It's you. It's always been you. There's no other."
"I'm out of words."
"I. Love. You."

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Hm corny much.

the night is not young

1:47 AM

I can't sleep.
The thoughts of you are running in my mind.

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I'm wondering if thoughts of me are running in yours, too..

living in a dream

Dreams.

People believe some dreams are not meant to come true. Really then? I don't know. Yeah perhaps my dreams haven't all come true. But doesn't mean one day, one of my dreams will come true.

But....

To me, if my dreams are not to come true, the hell with it. I've still got more dreams to reach, to work for. I don't understand why some people would just... stop dreaming. When you decide to stop dreaming, it means you decide to give up your everything.

World peace. One of my dreams is to make world peace. Join me? Let's just start in our community. Start loving, stop hating. Remember, if you live to hate, you'll never learn to love.

Anyways,

To be with you is one of my dreams too. :)

when i turn 21

I'm gonna get my first tattoo on my wrist with the words, "No lies, just love."

Anyways talking about life.

Life's been good so far. I attended two parties in a row this weekend, and they were really good. Am I a party animal? Not. Well I guess I deserved the parties I attended, since a girl like me - yes, who goes to a homogenous school with strict rules and teachers and thousand stuffs to do - always spends hours studying like shit.

And again, this is my advice to you:

Life is hard, then try not to harden it. Enjoy life, live it to the highest, don't take it for granted - for your life is the best present you've ever been given.

So has everyone had a good life? :)